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Her name is Kirsten Herthog, read her story.

“It all started when I was about 8 years old, I would secretly eat packets of cookies, chips and lollies to distract myself from the sadness in my life and the pressure to be “Beautiful”. I kept eating large quantities of food until the age of 13 when I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety whilst I also had a Compulsive Eating Disorder which no one was aware of but I lived my life to the fullest, I did Dance, Drama and loved spending time with my friends and family until one day I decided to move schools thinking it would make me happier. I would wake up everyday feeling fat & ugly so I finally decided to take control and eat less and less and exercise more and more. At first I started looking slim and healthy but I kept going, I couldn’t stop. A voice inside of me told me I was still overweight even though all my bones were showing. I would do anything to be thin. I exercised for two hours everyday & only ate a few bites of yoghurt and a salad. I would do anything to avoid having to eat. I would hide food in plastic bags under my bed, throw my breakfast in the neighbours bins, leave dirty bowls in the kitchen making it look like I had eaten and tell people I had already had lunch while I clearly hadn’t. I lied to my own family & friends every single day, but I didn’t care because I would wake up everyday feeling so unbelievably proud of the fact that I could see my bones and flat stomach. Little did I know I was sick, very sick. My hair was falling out, my skin and teeth turned yellow, my nails were thin and purple, I was freezing cold everyday, all my organs were failing, my heartbeat was down to 30 beats per minute, My bone density was rapidly decreasing, my body was eating my own muscles, I couldn’t concentrate or even think properly, I always blacked out and felt dizzy, I was antisocial and never had any energy anymore-I could barely walk up stairs but I had no control to stop any of it, my eating Disorder had completely taken over me to the point that I starved myself for a whole week, even too scared to take a sip of water. I walked for 8 whole hours until I arrived home and blacked out. My dad tried feeding me a piece of steak but I couldn’t do it. My whole family stared at me, they couldn’t understand how a girl who used to be so happy and healthy could sit in front of them so thin and fragile. Tears started to fall down my face and I admitted that I hadn’t had any nutrition for a whole week and that I had lost a shocking amount of weight in 6 weeks. They immediately rushed me to Manly hospital where I had a feeding tube forced down my throat and was put in an Ambulance to Sydney Children’s Hospital. I was told that I had Anorexia Nervosa and for the next 48 hours they were going to try and keep me alive…

I decided to make this website to tell about my 8 year battle with my eating disorder, inform people about the 6 horrible weeks I spent in hospital, blog about my ongoing battle (I’ve relapsed and been sick at home again for the past month) and hopefully help prevent anyone from getting to the point that I have and ruining their own life because of their weight. I’m aware that people have negative responses to what I have done but I have not made this website for sympathy but purely for the fact that this eating disorder has destroyed part of my own life so I may aswell help other people save theirs whilst using this website as a part of my own recovery. Please look through the website and if you do feel like you have or know someone that could have an eating disorder, look through the “Contacts” section and GET HELP. You don’t choose Anorexia, It chooses you..”

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